Live

There is much to do,

much to be,

much to say.

Lift me beyond gravity

up above solid ground.

 

Life is short.

Here than gone.

Sand slipping between fingers.

No stopping once it starts.

Ever rolling forward.

 

Seasons change,

Bloom and die

Spring then Fall once more

Little toes.

Out grown shoes-

walking blues.

 

Nothing left but moments,

Treasure box memories.

Time is fleeting.

Sunshine's bright whispering,

"Live here while you can."

Simple Love: Take One

One chaotic day, a couple of years ago, is etched in my mind.  I remember having a mountain load that I fiercely wanted to accomplish.  I don't remember many details from that busy day, but the day's end left me completely unsettled.  My body ached and my emotions bubbled.  I felt unsatisfied.  Having quickly tucked my little boys in bed, I threw my body on my bed, my arms stretched out on both sides, and stared at the ceiling.  The frustration of not meeting my expectations stared me in the face.  I didn't want to meet it's gaze.  I thought of escaping, but I felt pinned down by it's stare.  Having no place to go, I succumbed.  I tried to explain how I'm trying my hardest, but it saw through me.  I let it beat me down.  I squeezed my eyes shut, forbidding myself to cry.  The tears escaped out the corners and down the sides of my face.

Kam, eventually found me, after arriving late from a taxing day at work.  I was still lost in my frustration stare down when he softly slipped by my side.  He propped his head up with his hand and used his other to wipe the tears off my face.  He waited.  He is my waiting knight.  I finally vented life's sorrows according to me.  It can be painful trying to figure out how to become everything at once.  There are many things I love, and trying to divide myself into pieces to march off and become all of those dreams and goals was impossible.  I knew that the most important thing was pouring my love into the little souls in my keep, but that was hard with my soul divided. 

Kam took in what I was trying to say.  He gave it a minute or two then replied,

It's not what you get done, it's who you are becoming

Those words have popped into my head about a million times in the last couple of years.  Every time they do, life makes more sense.  If  I accomplish every goal I've ever made, but I'm not a person full of love then those accomplishments don't mean a thing.  My new goal in life is simple love.  I want those late night stare downs to be against a more compassionate foe.  Instead of tearing myself down, the answer is quite simple... love.

I believe the answer to this question will be the only one that matters after life is at it's end. . . Did you love?

Simple love is not extravagant.  It is consistent and genuine.  It is not self serving.  It is thoughtful.  Simple love sees the good and the bad, but chooses to see the good.  It is hopeful, encouraging, and warm.  Simple love believes in possibility.  I want to fill my soul with simple love every day.